poor me . . .

still unmotivated and now I'm sick on top of that.  Last Thursday, I got a sore throat.  Since then, it has gotten severely worse.  Stupid holiday weekend prevented me from getting into a doctor until today.  I hope they can do something for me, because I can't eat anything solid and even drinking/swallowing anything kills me.  I can't even take pills to help with the pain because they would get stuck in my throat.  It's gotten so bad it's affecting my ear, too.  I'm miserable.  I hope this doesn't affect my baby.  I can't exercise because that would make me need to swallow.  I've been afraid of passing this to my son and husband, but so far it only looks like Jameson's got a cold.
I hurt :(

not good

since finding out I was pregnant, I've put on 11 pounds.  UGH!  I haven't changed my eating and I've been exercising more than I used to (which was nothing).  So what gives?  I guess I'll figure out something more next week.  I wish I could get morning sickness and not feel hungry.  I might have to go to the store and get some cup of soup and boca burgers.  That way I can still eat but not take in very many calories.  My goal is to lose weight this pregnancy.
I've been so unmotivated lately.  My business isn't going anywhere, neither is my writing.  I haven't been feeling up to anything.  Not even going out and going shopping.  I think I might be depressed.  I don't like this feeling.  It's all I can do not to just sit around and dream all day, but even the little I do is boring and meaningless.  And my house is freezing!  I don't dare change the heat for fear we'll go bankrupt paying for it.  I hope I get over this soon and get back to myself.

so -

I haven't been very 'with it' on my blogging this past week and I'll go ahead and blame that on my husband who took a week off from work.  My whole schedule has been crazy.  On Friday, I found out I'm pregnant!  YAY ME!  We've been trying since my son was about 1.  So I've been riding a high all weekend and it was capped off by my Packers winning the Super Bowl!  I'm so happy right now!
I exercised this morning.  Felt good to be active again and it will help the baby.  Last time, I didn't have anywhere to go so I sat on my bed all day.  UGH!  I gained so much weight.  Not this time, though!  I'm going to be better.  I did weigh in at 219, but considering what I ate last night and the fact that it's midday and not the morning - not too shabby.  I'll give myself a break this time.
We're going to find out what sex the baby is this time around.  If it's a girl, we already have a name, but we'd need to clear out the office to the basement so we could have a room for her, and if it's a boy, we need to pick out a name.  My husband's VERY picky about the names - it's very difficult to find one that we both like.  I've already compiled a list and even made them into a list of full names he can browse.  Yeah, it'll be better and harder this time.  My little man is used to all of mommy's time and I don't know how we're both going to handle this.  Thank goodness for nine months!  That's probably it for now.  :D